The world around me started to change.

The world around everyone started to change.

The economy

Storms and fires and quakes and heatwaves

And personal change

on a small scale

and a large scale

every day

it spreading

The great Resignation

And finding myself wanting less of most things

less stuff

less waiting for what felt called for

less of anything that wasn’t absolutely necessary

or didn’t have an intensity of affirmation

and then wanting so much more

of other things

time to uncover

time to sit still

time to see fully

time to go back and rest in the outdoors

for a walk or

an afternoon

time to re-imagine and let in and feel the onslaught of

feelings and reset.

and accepting both the power and the powerlessness

over outcomes and expectations closer to home,

and far from home, as well,

Slowly, as nothing outside made sense,

there was more and more motivation

to stand back

and turn in

and go within

I’ve had more than one mentor

in life,

or in the words they left behind

to be passed on through time,

talk about a time, a place,

and that maybe there’ll be more than one

time, or one place,

that can only

be faced alone,

that a partner or husband or boyfriend

or friends

or loved ones or family

can be outside of

and even sometimes

come up close to,

but it’s a one person place

where one person can listen, and one person can find the

outcome, a place that most everyone, at some point, will

have to go into alone, that doesn’t mean without support,

or connecting, in certain ways, with the

things and people and outlets

that most feed them,

or even that others can’t see it happening,

just that there are answers there

that can only be heard and accepted alone,

and that answers outside that, won’t

hang in there for the long term,

that time of reckoning

grieving

and

willpower

drawing into a place of reflection,

and back from the outside world,

closing one stage of life

and making a

new place,

in the midst of a changing world, to call home.

~ N.P.

Written By: Nika Patrice.

Attribution: Nika Patrice.

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